Sami

You have hurt me. You have let me down to many times to keep track off. I don’t hate you. I am disappointed in you. I am disappointed you are not a better man like you could have been. Dad, how could you do this to me. I thought I was your kid? I thought you loved me? Why Dad? How could you just abandon me like you did? Yes I moved with Mom. Yes I moved 4 states away. But love and family knows no boundaries, right? One would do whatever they could for family. NO MATTER the choices one made. I was 13 and you still can’t get over the fact that I moved. 

Dad. Do you even know I am going to be getting married soon? Do you know that I don’t even want to invite you, but I would be in the wrong for not trying to be the bigger person. Do you know that you won’t even be walking your Daughter down the Aisle? Do you know that you will have no part of my child’s life if I choose to ever have anyone? Do you know how much I envy anyone who has a good relationship with the person who help create them? 

Dad, you have taught me so much far. You have taught me what true family is. You have shown me your true colors. I looked up to you. I bragged about you to everyone when I went to school. About how cool my dad was. How much I missed him and how much I loved him. But as I grew up and the less I would receive calls, I became extremely angry. I have always came out to see you. You could never make the effort to come out to see me. The week before my Graduation, everyone asked me if I had invited you yet. You know what I said, why? WHY? Why would I even invited someone that I know will not even ATTEMPT to come out to see me walk across the stage. Why would I even waste my time and breath. I had a perfect graduation, but you know that if you came. It has been how many years and you still get be civil with my mother? Mmhmm. Real mature. Maturity lacks in the Smith Blood line. 

You have hurt me the worst possible way. I can’t wait to one day to have a family. No matter if I will be with them forever or not, but I hope it will be forever. I will NEVER give up on my OWN child. I will cross the GLOBE to be where every they needed. A strong women raised me. My mother is amazing and if I had a choice to go back and changed anything I had every done in my life, I wouldn’t. 

So please remember Dad, when you bitch about how shitty your life is, you made it that way. You give up on me. You gave up your youngest daughter and took in a women with a Education of a 7th grader and her two children. 

Love the Daughter you have hurt,

Sami